mel in the milkyway: Secrets 4 - Apologies.

currently: tired. Sitting in the dark of my bedroom, listening to "In My Arms" by Jon Foreman. Which I find very fitting because I could use a hug...


Okay, I know I've already posted today, but I'm just so tired - and I just really need to relieve the stress and all the thoughts inside my head. So today's blog installment of Secrets is a special of Apologies. Very much like my other Secret posts (see: 1/2/3), but just the apologies today.

Why I'm doing this? I just need to be forgiven, and to have the comfort that all will be okay eventually.

So...here we go.

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I'm sorry that I don't put my priorities in the right place. I should have gone, I know I was suppose to be there. And I'm sorry that I don't spend enough time with you, or talk enough with you, and that I'm not as close as I should be.
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I'm sorry of all the ways I act. I always feel like I'm being disrespectful and frustrating to work with and I really apologise for that.
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I'm sorry when I know I should be doing something but I don't do it, and when you tell me then it puts stress on you because I'm angry and frustrated.
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I'm sorry that I wrongly accuse you sometimes. I'm just so scared of what will happen if I lose my head in all of this.
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I'm sorry that we just don't have time to talk anymore, or that we can't even see each other because I could really use you here right now.
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I'm sorry that I'm not strong enough to say how I really feel.
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I'm sorry for not giving you the acknowledgement that you do deserve, and for all the work you do put in for me that I do take for granted because I expect it.
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I'm sorry that I get annoyed at you a lot. I just feel that if I'm not the one putting in all the work, that nothing will be done. I'm sorry that I don't put enough trust in you.
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I'm sorry that I can't bear to let go of my past and be more accepting of what you're offering me.
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I'm sorry that I'm too afraid to ask for help.
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